So of course the week I decide to start my blog and everything I feel like crap. My stomach has been bothering me for a couple days I feel drained and tired and emotional and honestly I thought I was pregnant even though I have my tubes tied. Which freaked me out because I have two perfect children (to me anyways lol) and they are both in school now and I’m so done with diapers. If I was pregnant thought we would welcome the child with open arms and all the love in our hearts and we would step up to the plate. Funny thing is that both our kids want a brother or sister and it breaks my heart when they talk about but they don’t understand that it would take attention away from them at least for the first few years. Plus two kids plus two adults makes going places either because I only have to worry about one and hubby worries about the other one. Anyways the pregnancy test came back negative.
Anyways I feel like crap for not posting more this week I promise I will be more active on my insta and twitter accounts and on here. I am going to the doctors in a little while to see whats wrong and I will update everyone one on what is going on. I’m hoping its nothing to serious but knowing my luck who knows. I know I should of went to the doctors early but I am so scared to go to the hospital the reason…I am on pain medication for my chronic pain, I am in the process of getting off it but it is a medication you can’t just stop because of wonderful withdrawals. So I am working with my pain management doctor to get off of them and just use cannabis to manage my pain as it also helps my other ailments. So when I go to the emergency room I have always been looked at as a drug seeker even though I tell them when I go in there I do not want any pain meds as I have my own. This is why I haven’t been to the ER in years I always try and make my appointments with my doctor but today I just can’t take it and I can’t get in to see my doc which sucks.
Ok I am gonna leave this hear as I am waiting for hubby to get home to bring me and I just can’t concentrate on this right now but I wanted to reach out and let you guys know what is going on. Have any hospital stories you want to share, please feel free to leave them in the comments as we are in this together. Love you all thank you for your support.